I started having health problems in my early thirties and was diagnosed as ‘terminally infertile’ when I was 36. I had already given birth to my first daughter, but I firmly believed that I was going to have another girl.
The First Wake-Up Call
I remember the moment I was kicked out of infertility treatment and told that I could never bear another child. It was part devastation and part wake-up call. I decided to take matters into my own hands. I researched food and healthy living and found out just how much I had been abusing my own body. From that moment, I changed everything I was putting on and in my body. As my body detoxed from chemicals and unhealthy foods, I began to feel better. I eventually got pregnant, but I miscarried at 14 weeks. Shortly after my miscarriage, I found out I was pregnant again, ultimately giving birth to my second daughter.
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A One-Two Punch
Hearing the words “you have breast cancer” more than a decade later shook me to my core. In a moment everything changed, and I began a journey into the unknown.
It was a hard year that followed, filled with decisions, treatments, and a life-threatening infection. Just as my treatments were coming to an end, I got word that my mom’s health was failing. A few weeks later I sat at her bedside, holding her right hand in my left and my right hand over her heart as it took its last beat.
At this point, I felt defeated and hopeless. I wasn’t sure what the future was going to bring or if even if I wanted to know what was ahead for me. I was exhausted, physically, mentally and emotionally.
Awakening Hope – The Missing Link
It was my inability to sleep or take a deep breath after my battle with breast cancer that eventually led me to yoga, where I was able to begin the deep work of going inside and becoming whole. I finally started releasing layers of mental and physical holding that had accumulated throughout my life.
Although I was living a healthier lifestyle, I had not addressed what was going on inside my mind and spirit. I didn’t realise that my mind was also affecting my body.
I had spent a lifetime holding on to things in my body and my mind. In yoga, there is a saying that “the issues are in the tissues’, and mine were well seasoned! My body and mind were like a pressure cooker ready to explode at any minute,
As I moved deeper into my practice the weight I was holding began to dissolve. I started to have hope. I felt stronger, more alive and more at peace. From a health and wellbeing perspective, a mind-body practice was the missing “piece of the pie” for me.
Moving Forward with Hope
My yoga practice helped me reclaim my life and to move forward after cancer. I don’t think about it every day, but it is always in the back of my mind. Yoga has helped me let go of these thoughts and the anxiety that arises from them, and to remember to live in the moment. My practice also reminds me to take better care of myself.
My journey has not been a straight line to where I am today, and there is always work to do. I now know that I have to regularly connect, move, and breathe deeply to keep energy moving in my body. It releases the unwanted build up in both body and mind.
The result is that I get to share something I am deeply passionate about with others. Although I may be teaching, I also receive so much back: I end each day with a full heart, and a good night’s sleep.
WRITTEN BY- HOPE KNOSHER
HOPE IS A CERTIFIED YOGA THERAPIST & E-RYT AND
FOUNDER OF HOPE’S YOGA. AFTER A ROUGH BOUT
WITH BREAST CANCER, HOPE TURNED TO YOGA TO
HELP HER HEAL. WHEN HER PRACTICE LIFTED HER
MENTALLY, PHYSICALLY, AND EMOTIONALLY, SHE
EXPERIENCED A HEARTFELT CALLING TO SHARE
THE HEALING QUALITIES OF YOGA WITH OTHERS.
SHE INSPIRES AND EMPOWERS INDIVIDUALS TO LIVE
A MORE JOYFUL AND CONNECTED LIFE THROUGH
HER TEACHING, WRITING, CLASSES, WORKSHOPS,
AND SOUL-SHIFTING RETREATS.
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